you probably don't care what i have to say.

can you ever really know someone, like completely?
when people say that they have no secrets, are they just lying to you?
doesn't everyone have those things that they do/think/feel that they wouldn't ever share with anyone?
even in their own private diary, because writing those things down would make them real. admitting them to yourself, let alone anyone else, is hard enough i think. those kinds of thoughts/feelings, they can be destructive and can tear through a relationship like fire.

anyway, don't you hate it when you're with a friend, and you're chatting and talking. and this person comes up to you, and only says hi to your friend? and you're like, wtf am i invisible to you? i suppose it's because 'he' this person who came up to me and my friend, has a crush on my friend. it's quite funny because he's completely fugly, and she's so not interested. but she talks to him anyway, which is nice, but i suppose ignoring him would be better so that he doesn't delude himself too much. poor guy, not. what a randomer?

so most embarrassing thing that's happened today? hmm, well i came out of the library and in this small amount of space of the corridor, i came face to face with that guy, you know the guy who sends your heart into a trampolining performance? and well, we did that thing where you try and manoeuvre out of the way but you both go the same way, and then do it again, you know? and basically i did this little 'argh', and tried to avert my eyes because i can't deal with the eye contact. but then he looked at me and smiled, and i just found a way past and shot out of the building. what fucking twat i am, i mean really, really! but at least, i didn't go bright red like usual.

geez, sometimes life sucks.

love your stupid-stupid-stupid-blog-writer,
lydiaa
x

PSSS. i hate it when you press publish on these posts, then read through and realize you've made like five mistakes. and it annoys you so much, you have to go back and change them.