and you take my breath away.

so my day has been full of ups and downs.
the start of the day was pretty much a downer, because i've realised that i'm going to uber fail modern history. like, i'll get zero. and it's not even a possibility or even something i can avoid, it's set in stone. and this isn't a cry for 'omgod lydia, you're not going to fail, you is amazing' comments. it's just a fact! because i know it. and i've gotten to the point where i don't care. usually, i'd blush when the teacher tells me i've done crap, and i'd be upset or whatever. but now, i'm just like yeah, fine, okay.

i mean, don't get me wrong.
i'd love an A/B but, unless i put in a lot, lot, lot, lot of effort, i'm never going to do it. i mean, on this one essay, i put my all into it, and i only got a C. my mate, who's good at the subject, and revises hard and all that, she's only got a B. so, i've decided to give up now.
because i can't be fucking arsed!

on a positive note, i'm actually able to memorize the stuff in psychology.
SAM; sympathic adrenomedullary pathway.
HPA; hypathalamic pituitary adrenal axis.
oh yeshhhhhhh. (: and i can actual remember how they work and everything, and that's only after one lesson! wicked mahns. i've got a really good memory actually, and can remember stuff after one lesson. it's quite useful. but i've gotta be interested in the subject, and with modern history it's like, nahhh. (:

then, english was wicked.
i've actually had the funnest (great english there, aye?) lesson ever today.
for the first time, i've realised that i've made some pretty good friends after moving. stacey and matt made my day today. (: they're so lovely.

love your sad-but-incredibly-happy-blog-writer,
lydia!
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