my heart was blinded by you.

i've just send the email to all of my roleplay buddies, all denouncing myself as a roleplayer. i've finally given up this compulsion.
i don't know, i wasn't roleplaying before, not really. my replies came like once a week, and they weren't that good because i wasn't interesting in the roleplays i was doing. but, an overwhelming sense of loss has just flooded me. knowing that that is the end, the roleplayers are probably deleting me off of their email address books right this very instant.
i really do think the saying, 'you don't know what you've got until it's gone' is true. more true than a lot of sentients, and i think i am going to miss roleplaying a lot.
but i've always got our blog, right Maleeha? right? don't you leave me! (:

i found out some very sordid details today. some of them, i'm not sure i've ever wanted to know.
for instance i found out, *names all replaced
uno; graham*, who is a bi-sexual currently going out with a guy, went out with anna* and hetold herthat he had done anal many many times before. i'm sorry, really sorry, but i just don't think i'd ever go out with a bi-sexual. i mean, picture this, you're sitting on the couch with your bi-sexual boyfriend watching heroes, and you go, 'Cor, Peter Petrelli is gorgeous'. and your guy goes, 'Yeah, man, phwoar.' no no NO!
that just decreases the sexy factor by millions.

dos; then i found out that nigel* is gay! omgod, i sort of suspected it with his obsession of hanging out with girls and having like, zilch guy friends. but i thought maybe he's just sensitive or bi-sexual, because everyone at our college seems to be bi-sexual, par me and my friends! i've always thought that bi-sexual is code for desperate, but hey, i'm not here to judge.
anyway, i found out that nigel* had sexual relations, that includes the whole schbang, with another guy from our college on the first date! yeah, that's how gay people do it apparently. and the other guy, well.. he's just.. ew.

tres; the fact that ellie* is bi-sexual, see i told you everyone is!, really shocked me. like seriously, i was like OMGOD REALLY? in the middle of the street. and the fact that she has a 23 year old girlfriend somewhere, is also really shocking. i always knew she was a bit of a slut, but i had no idea she batted for both sides.

quatro; that anna* has had a sex. and she said it hurt like real bad, and that she now plans to break up with her boyfriend. presumably because he maimed her vagina. well, obviously not, he's not like a psycho rapist or anything, but she doesn't love him anymore. and she's gorgeous and is better off with someone much more fitting than nick*.

anyway,
i'm sure you've had enough of all the scandals i found out today so,
love your omgod-really-blog-writer,
lydia ♥