we can pray for sunny weather, but that won't stop the rain.

i absolutely hate it when people say, 'as long as you're happy, i'm happy'.
eurgh, because it's not true.
it's not fucking trueeee! geez.
you can't live your life through someone else.
your life is yours. what you do with it is up to you.
just because someone isn't going to be happy with something that you do, doesn't mean you shouldn't do it. just because it might not be entirely safe, doesn't mean you shouldn't do it. just because you're scared, doesn't mean you shouldn't do it.

INSTINCTS, mahn.
you need to listen to them.
most of the time, we're right.
most of the time, we know exactly what we need.
and i'm completely sure on this fact.
and i'm probably pessimistic and depressing, but i believe that the only person you can trust and depend on, is yourself.
even family. i'm sorry, but they can't always pull through with what you need. you need yourself, and any other support on the side is good. but you're the base, you. everything else is just extra.

i realised today that psychology just isn't for me, and that i'm definitely not carrying on with it at university.
i want to be an english teacher i think. it's what i'm good at, and it's what i love doing. i like helping out people and i love english. you can be creative and get across your point, it's an amazing subject. it's what i wanna do, and it's what i'm gonna do. that's a promise.

eurgh, something pissed me off today.
okay; there's this girl, for the purpose of this we shall call her Sue. so, Sue travels from shrewsbury to our college, and because of this Sue knew no one. so she befriends a great wee lass, whom i love, called Mel, once again for the purpose of this post. Sue and Mel are great friends for month, but then one week Sue goes to LDN town, and she picks up a guy named Kevin. Sue and Kevin begin to spend lots and lots of time together, slowly pushing Mel out of the picture.
then, today. Sue and Mel planned to go on a trip to a university together, and would sit together on the coach and be partners in things and it would be bloody funkydory. buttt, because of Kevin, Sue ditches her plans with Mel and sticks to Kevin. what a bitch Sue is, i mean? what happened to bros before hos, or chicks before dicks + sisters before misters?

i mean really!
and so, Mel was depressed for the whole of the university trip, until she hung around with us, because we izzz like amazing.
'uryeah, and your point is lydia?'
that your man shouldn't take over your whole world.
PEOPLEZZZ, YOU CAN DO STUFF WITHOUT YOUR MAN/WIFEY.
GET OVER IT, YEAHZ?

i love this;;;
www.youtube.com/watch?v=VTd597jo0Bc

love your completely-independant-english-loving-blog-writer,

lydia
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