Musings:
Yes, I've been gone for long time, but I've been busy with exams, driving tests, work and college. I haven't had time to write down all my nonsensical thoughts into a jumbled up blog post. My mental capacity for manoeuvring all of these ideas into a flowing post has been absent and therefore, there really hasn't been any point in logging on to blogger.
However, I am my own person now and my time is my own - to a certain extent - leaving me able to continue my favourite past time of writing absolute rubbish. In the last couple of weeks, I've had a few inspirational nights, where just before bed I have all of these ideas and I begin to write them down in my notebook. I am one of those people who, when they get a thought they have to write it down or say it, otherwise my brain can't calm down and let me sleep. And once I begin to write, I can't stop, leaving my hand and arm aching. This is incredibly stupid, especially when I had an exam the next morning.
Except, now that I've finished my exams, I'm having trouble finishing all of the short stories and ideas I had started. Inspiration comes when you don't have the time - or the will - to sit down at write, and then when you have all the time in the world, your brain has turned the switch off. Inspiration, like life, is inconvenient.
Matters of importance:
1. College is completely finished, over, done with. Now, I can focus on working, building up my Uni fund and biding my time until the middle of August when my exam results come out. All of us students will make our way up to College and stand in line, practically shaking as we're handed an A4 piece of paper. This meagre piece of paper, handed to us by the tutors that have taught us over 2 years, will detail the results of 2 years hard - or not so hard - work. That piece of paper will determine our future and could either help it along, or ruin it, bringing our dreams crashing to the ground.
I think that most people will have an idea of how well they've done. Me, I'm pretty good at guessing what grades I will achieve before I receive them. It's not that hard when you take into account how far you've pushed yourself and how constant and steady your grades have been during the course. You need to be honest with yourself; you can't go into the results room expecting an A when you haven't been an A grade student consistently. Yes, there are miracles. Yes, there are moments when you exceed your potential; when a question comes up and the answer finds its way out of you. But miracles are anomalies. You can't rely on them.
2. After around 20 lessons, and 2 driving tests I have passed and am now a fully qualified, fully insured driver. Of course I am extremely happy and now love driving around in my Toyota Corolla. :) And do you know the best thing about it? You don't have to rely on anybody to pick you up or drop you off. And another good thing? You can cross your arms over when turning the steering wheel; I find that this is one of the best things about it. However, I fear that I might like driving too much. :/
Ultimately:
I found myself humming a song that I haven't heard in yonks. It's called Keep On Movin' by Five. I hadn't heard it on the radio or on a Television Music Channel, yet it was somehow on repeat in my head. The lyrics are really motivational and you wouldn't necessarily expect that from a 1990s British boyband. Usually, their songs are about love, loss of love and fighting for the return of love, (this is a common theme in Take That's songs.)
However, this song is refreshing - well, as refreshing as an eleven year old song can be - in the fact that it's about moving forward and forgetting about all of the bad stuff in your life. I suggest that if you're in a deep funk, you really should give it a listen. I would link it on YouTube for you here but...
Well, okay I will...
So the official video was disabled for embedding, but you can always look it up. It's very '90s. Enjoy!
♥ Lydia.
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